IM GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF
i had fucking insomnia and then i FINALLY fell asleep and then at 3 am my roommate and her bf stroll in and slam the door and fucking wake me up..and then her bf starts SNORING really loud so i obviously can’t get back to sleep..so i decide im just gonna take a shower and get started on my morning early..so at like 4 am i come back to my room and go to sit in my bed and my ENTIRE BED IS SOAKING WET…meaning most likely someone fucking peed in my bed..so i go to my best friend’s room and her door is locked and i feel bad waking her up since its 4:30 am and all..so im chilling in the hallway on my computer..
the idea of commuting to college is sounding really nice right now..i’m strongly considering going home for the weekend early
college life is so fucked up sometimes its actually ridiculous
and why is it that the ONE guy i didn’t want to see was at the library on the only day i’ve been to the library in the past 5 months and WHEN I LOOK LIKE SHIT?!?!
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."
